This devotional is from the March, 2010, Magnificat. It is by Brother Lawrence of the Resurrection († 1691). As a young man, he was a soldier in France. He later became a French Carmelite friar.
I will not ask God to deliver you from your trials, but I will ask him earnestly to give you the patience and strength needed to suffer as long as he desires. Find consolation in him who keeps you fixed to the cross; he will release you when he judges it appropriate. Happy are they who suffer with him. Get used to suffering, and ask him for the strength to suffer as he wants, and for as long as he judges necessary. The worldly do not understand these truths, and I am not surprised; the reason is that they suffer as citizens of this world and not as Christians. They consider illnesses as natural afflictions and not as graces from God, and therefore they find in them only what is difficult and harsh for our nature. But those who regard them as coming from the hand of God, as signs of his mercy and the means he uses for their salvation, ordinarily find great sweetness and perceptible consolations in them.
I wish you were convinced that God is often closer to us in times of sickness and suffering that when we enjoy perfect health. Seek no other doctor but him. I think he wants to cure you by himself. Place all your trust in him, and you will soon experience the benefits we resist when we trust more in medical remedies than in God.
Whatever remedies you may use, they will only work to the extent that he will permit. When suffering comes from God, he alone can cure it, and he often leaves us with physical illness in order to cure our spiritual illness. Find consolation in the sovereign doctor of body and soul.
I have heard your prayer and seen your tears. I will heal you. (2 Kings 20:5)
Beverly you are really in my thoughts and prayers. This will always be a time when I remember how God led me to that RCIA meeting where you were starting that journey that we shared. I am so grateful that God let me be a part of that experience. You inspire me. May God continue to fill you with His spirit and through you also bless us. I miss seeing you, ours prayers are with you.