Back to the hospital. I’m going in early tomorrow morning for a new graft. They will try to place this one in my right arm. The one in my left arm is just constant trouble, so we’ll kind of start over with a new one. It will be a couple of weeks before we can use it, and I hope the one in my left arm will hold out long enough to make the transition. My left arm has been swollen for several weeks now, so it will be nice to get rid of that problem, too.
I’ve been feeling pretty good the last day or so, and my blood counts are good right now. I hope to get a chemo treatment next week if the graft surgery goes well and my platelets don’t get too low. I really feel the need to get chemo soon - I know the cancer is probably gaining on me with every day I have to wait. It seems like one roadblock after another lately, and it’s been very frustrating. Especially on my bad days, when I’m in a lot of pain, it’s easy to get really down, and I have to make an extra effort to keep that from happening. I have to keep fighting and not let it get the better of me. I’m afraid my faith gets weak at times, and I have to remind myself to surrender everything to Jesus and just let it be. Then on days like today – when I feel so good – I’m so thankful and grateful – it’s easy to have faith and trust that everything will be OK. The days are up and down. I just hope for more up days than down days. I still have to take them one day at a time. And for this day, and every day, I am thankful.
His grace is sufficient.
Your faith and acceptance encourages us all. We will continue to pray for you and yours. Part of our prayer is always that God will continue to bring good out of this dark valley through which you are traveling. May God grant you peace and comfort during this time. Our love to you all.
Yes, Howard said it well. God grant you peace and comfort, Beverly. How many more days ’til Lindy graduates!? That will be such a happy happy occasion for you and Jim!
Prayed for you.
As always, you and your family are in our prayers. You are such a blessing showing each of us your total trust in the Lord. We love you.
Sounds like you have had a few rough weeks, but glad to hear there were good days also. I know I wrote to you this Spring about what is going on with my husband and his esophogeal cancer. He went through chemo, radiation and then a esophogectomy about 4 weeks ago. Very difficult & long surgery but he is getting stronger ea day. They are now looking at additional chemo as the esophagus was clean on the path report but 2 of the 8 lymph nodes showed a trace of the cancer. One the recommendations is to begin treatment around June 20th with Oxaliplatin / Taxotere – 5 FU – sounds like something similar to what you are taking. We are continuing to pray for guidance – have been so blessed with wonderful surgeon and Oncologist. We just keep believing daily for healing.
Will continue to pray for you – if you have any info to share regarding the Oxaliplating – 5FU – please do.
God bless!!!